I’m struggling with acceptance at the moment. I have a far easier time accepting the world with all of its faults, foibles, warts and all than accepting my weaknesses. It’s not that I try to gloss over or ignore my issues. I try to talk about them in my writing. I try to process them and then absorb them. There are times when I stress over them far too much, and I realize that.
Today has been a rough one. My energy levels have been lagging behind for a while now. For months, I’ve been feeling dragged down. And then I received some news that I’m not ready to talk about yet. That I’m not ready to accept about myself, which forces me to face issues that again I’ve been neglecting to concentrate on others.
I’m a firm believer in ruling your own destiny. That you have the opportunity and chance to make the most out of this life. I also believe that some things have an expiration date and if you want too long to make a change, you can run out of time. That’s hard for a person with some control issues to accept.
My goal has been to really get my writing moving in the right direction. But life doesn’t give a nickel damn about my plans and my wants. So, I have to include these other issues and learn how to deal. Not just deal, to triumph. To teach my brain new habits and to learn how to live life differently.
This feels like vaguebooking, but I don’t share a lot about myself. Really, the details are unimportant. (However, I don’t have cancer and if managed correctly, it won’t be anything terminal. )What is important is that I take this news, access myself and cope with grace. And rise above it, while still working on my projects and making strides to becoming a better person.
I need to learn acceptance.
I wanted to write a poem for you, but I don’t have the words yet my friends. Today is the 20th. It’s time for #1000Speak for Compassion. Please go through and read some of these other posts that have been talking about either acceptance, compassion, or maybe a mixture of both. If you feel moved, if you want to contribute to the conversation, please write up a post, or create a video and link up here.
I’ve included the inaugural video that explains the impetus behind #1000Speak, if you haven’t heard of it before.